My Inner Women

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I was so inspired by Ananda Leeke’s seminar at the Blissdom ’12 Conference that I’m writing about some of the archetypes living inside me. I’ll list and describe each (some have names, some don’t…yet) one briefly:

The little girl inside of me, Ernie (my childhood nickname).

Ernie is quiet and befriends ladybugs. Her short, crooked pigtails compliment her freckled face. When she gets a new book she scampers away with it, gobbling up each page. Sometimes she dances when she’s alone. She’s careful with her friendships and often gets lost, even with a map.

The warrior inside of me.

Planks. Rivulets of sweat. Tree pose. Barely wobbling ankle, strong arms. She balances effortlessly and looks fear in the face while preparing for battle. Don’t try to cross her more than once, and certainly not more than twice–she won’t have it. She pummels demons to the ground for wrongdoing and fights until she wins.

The relentless critic inside of me, Alpha.

Alpha sneers at her reflection in mirrors. She loathes every aspect of herself, having learned to do so from Self Deprecation, her best friend. Her neck hurts from looking up at everyone she’s placed on pedestals high above, like trophies.

The daredevil inside of me, Sasha.

Sasha gets tattoos and pierces her ears all the way up. She wears her favorite red patent leather stilettos on roller coasters. She tells people she loves them even though they might not say it back. She scatters her secrets all over her blog like seeds. Sometimes you have to dig to find them, while others are perched right atop the soil.

There are more, but perhaps I’ll save them for another post.

Who are your inner women/men? I want to hear all about them.

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  • http://misadventuresofmrsb.com/ Mrs. Jen B

    Wow, Erin.  Wow.  I wish I had something more intelligent to say but this has me reeling – in a good way.

    I so wish I’d been at that session.

  • Asouthernfairytale

    love love love.
    cannot wait to watch this session from Blissdom at Home.  YOU have grown so much in the last year and I have loved watching you come into your own and take off in this amazing way.  <3

  • http://profiles.google.com/randomblogette Random Blogette

    I just love this!

     

  • bywordofmouth

    YOU, you can totally wear red patent leather stilettos!

  • Frelle

    i probably wont blog about my inner women. and im not sure i will name them.  but they are compassion, little girl, warrior, inner critic, and creative.  and compassion, little girl, and creative all had something to say to me in that session, and it was good wisdom and insight into accepting parts of myself, and nurturing parts of myself. was glad warrior and inner critic were quiet that day. :)  I love that you wrote about it, and I love your insight! :)

  • Frelle

    i probably wont blog about my inner women. and im not sure i will name them.  but they are compassion, little girl, warrior, inner critic, and creative.  and compassion, little girl, and creative all had something to say to me in that session, and it was good wisdom and insight into accepting parts of myself, and nurturing parts of myself. was glad warrior and inner critic were quiet that day. :)  I love that you wrote about it, and I love your insight! :)

  • http://crayonwrangler.com/ Crayon Wrangler

    Had I not been passing notes I may have actually gotten in touch with my inner women. I’m still in that funny place where I am not ready to dig in and talk to them. They have their jobs and perform them flawlessly. I am just trusting they have my best interest at heart.

    This was a great post! I love their names and your descriptions!

  • Anonymous

    Ohhhh this one is something right up my alley.. I love the ones you chose to talk about . I can see the Emmie and the Warrior.. I wish we all could see less of the Alpha in ourselves.

  • http://twitter.com/VelveteenMama Velveteen Mama

    I really loved this session; it deeply resonated with me.  I also loved that she gave us permission to keep it personal if we felt that was where we were.  I’m pretty sure that’s where I am at the moment.  Thank you for sharing yours though Erin – I think it’s really important to know these ladies and honor them for what they bring to our every day. xoxo

    • Ananda Leeke

      Hi Velveteen Mama. So glad my session at BlissDom helped you explore your inner women. And by all means, keep your inner women personal if you need to. 

      Blessings, Ananda

  • Juliecgardner

    Is it weird that I have one who thinks she can do anything and another one who thinks she’ll always fail?

    Yeah.
    I’m conflicted, I suppose. 

    But all of me wants to hug Ernie, hang with the warrior and Sasha, then kick Alpha’s ass.
    Twice, even.

    Still, we are who we are, I suppose.
    Both less and more than we want to be.

  • http://alguires.blogspot.com Elaine A.

    Oh wow, I would have to think a while on this one for myself… 

    So wishing I could have been with you there… (blissdom, that is…) 

  • http://www.nancymcampbell.com/ Nancy C

    This one leaves me thinking. In the very best way possible. There are a lot of people inside us, yes? And like you say, a few could stand to be evicted.

  • http://twitter.com/galitbreen Galit Breen

    I love this, Erin, so much.

    We all know this. Our story is our story and always will be a part of us.

    (Well done, lady!)

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Thank you, Galit. Would love to hear about your inner women sometime! ;-)

  • http://www.postdivorcechronicles.com LeeBlock

    I don’t think I can say mine out loud…there might be children around.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Lee,

      You crack me up. Send me yours in an email, k?
      xoxo

  • http://tiaras-and-trucks.blogspot.com Angela

    Erin, what I hope for you so much is that Sasha & your warrior team up to keep Alpha in her place.  You have amazing gifts to share, and I can’t wait to see more of them emerge :)

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Angela,

      You are a doll. I’m happy we got to meet and I hope we can get to know each other better soon. And I hope I didn’t scare you too much at Blissdom, seeing as Saturday night was when you saw the  most of me and I was in very rare form. LOL.

  • Stephanie Precourt

    I love how you describe your inner women. I wrote about mine, too – that session wrecked me in the best way.
    Steph

    • Ananda Leeke

      Hi Step! Glad my session helped you explore your inner women.

      Blessings, Ananda

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Stephanie,

      You said it—that session “wrecked” me in the best way, too. I can’t remember if I went by to see your take on it, heading over soon! Thanks for visiting me and commenting!

  • Ananda Leeke

    Hi Erin.

    What a great post. I love your inner women and their names. It was a pleasure to spend time with you and the other BlissDom attendees during my session.  Keep shining. 

    Blessings,

    Ananda Leeke

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Ananda,

      THANK YOU for a wonderful session, the inspiration, and the handouts so I could bring you & Blissdom home with me. I am going to keep working on all of this. I’m so glad I got to meet you and hear you speak last weekend. You were amazing!

  • http://twitter.com/whats_yourstory Angela Schaefers

    Lovely words to share a part of your story and a creative approach!  I love that more and more women are recognizing there are many parts of who we are and one role could not possibly define such glorious creatures as the female!

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Angela,

      Yes! and glorious creatures is right. Thank you so much for stopping by. ;-)

  • Gigi927

    I think I saw a few of these this past weekend. :) very interesting insight into you.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Gigi,

      I think you only saw the daredevil. Or did you see me cry, too? LOL!