I Would Like…

Posted on October 22, 2012 by erin


Today’s (totally optional) prompt at Jana’s Thinking Place: What have you done recently or would like to do that’s outside your comfort zone?


I desperately want to co-produce and direct a Listen to Your Mother Show here in Kansas City (application has already been sent in) in May 2013. And if KC isn’t selected, I’d like to apply to audition in the next closest city, probably Chicago.

I resigned as president of my synagogue. It was a difficult decision and completely outside my comfort zone. But it’s time for someone else to take the lead and time for me to pursue things closer to home and my heart. My last board meeting is Wednesday. I’m not exactly looking forward to it, but it’s the final step. I feel like a failure, and while I know that’s not reality, I can’t seem to stop thinking that way. Still, I could’ve stayed on and been stressed and ineffectual and angry and tired. But I didn’t. I cried and I said, “I can’t do this anymore.” I am stepping down.

I would like to go to a party like I did over the weekend and approach people and make normal conversation without knowing many of them very well. But I didn’t. I left early. I snuck out. Without saying any awkward goodbyes.

What about YOU? 

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  • http://twitter.com/lauraBseymour Laura S.

    proud of you, erin.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Laura,

      Thank you!!! xoxox

  • http://twitter.com/jana0926 Jana Anthoine

    Very proud of you. I agree about LTYM… really want it in ATL.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Jana,

      Well, no matter what, I am either GOING to a show or hosting one. I think Chicago would be the closest one to me, so….either way I have to experience it.

  • http://twitter.com/ashleytaylor76 The Dose of Reality

    I can’t think of a more deserving person to head up a LTYM show than you. :) I am crossing all of my crossables. I think that sometimes saying enough (to whatever you need to) is actually healthier than trying to stick with something that is not working.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Dose of Reality,

      Thanks for crossing all your crossables, cutie! Does that include your eyes? How do you type blog comments with your eyes crossed? LOL

  • http://writingwishing.com/ Alison

    I hope you get the LTYM gig, I really do. And stepping down and back from something that wasn’t working anymore does not mean that you failed. Not. At. All.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Thanks, Alison. I stepped down from the temple and I’ve felt a little better (though still guilty) since then…

  • http://www.thekircorner.com Kir

    You would AMAZING for this!!! YES! I do hope that you get it and show the world what I already know…that you’re incredible!!!

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Kir,

      I dunno, babe. Go look at my newest post. I’m not incredible and I feel like shit. I am having a rough couple of days. we are overdue for a chat. xoxo

  • outlaw mama

    You were president of your synagogue? That’s amazing…you are so young. and good for you for pursing your heart’s desires. I have a friend who moved to Kansas City from Chicago and I have a vision that you guys are friends. Anyway, good for you and thank you for sharing. I need all the help I can get pursuing things close to my heart. Good luck with your application.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Outlaw Mama,

      I finally sent in the actual resignation letter. I had resigned in person, but to make it official I had to write a note. It wasn’t easy. But it was for the best. Thank you so much!

  • http://www.misselaineouslife.com Elaine A.

    Sometimes as adults we gotta make those hard decisions, I know. You are NOT a failure. You just know your limitations. And I really hope the LTYM thing works out for you, my dear. xo

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Elaine,

      Wait, we’re adults? When did THAT happen? xoxo

  • Lady Jennie

    I wish I had talked to you more at BlogHer. For some reason I felt struck with shyness when we were introduced. Next time I won’t do that though! :-) I love the way you go for the things that matter to you heart and soul.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Jennie,

      I, too, know the feeling of being struck by shyness. My problem is that I succumb to it too often. Daring myself to stop and just start walking up to people, etc….I wish we’d had more time to talk as well.

  • http://twitter.com/PamelotH PamelaFaganHutchins

    Sometimes the “failure” decisions are our biggest triumphs over the fear of the opinions of others. You were brave. :)

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Pam,

      I was brave. Which used to be rare, but now I’m getting better at it. ANd I’m so impressed and happy for you about your new book and the amazing Amazon stats! YOU GO, GIRL!!!! xoxoxo

  • http://twitter.com/MomoFali Momo Fali

    You are SO not a failure. Sometimes we have to let things to in order to succeed.

    • http://www.erinmargolin.com/ Erin Margolin

      Thank you, Momo. You’re completely right on this one. And I did let it go. Oddly, something else (which I can’t yet talk about) fell into place right afterwards…Momo must be psychic! xoxo