Dream a Little Dream With Me.

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I wake, the fingers of a dream still clutching at my shirt sleeve.

It’s my college graduation, but for some reason we’re at my old high school. Talented Beau who always has star roles in our plays is flying high above the brown cafeteria tables, hanging precariously from cables in the ceiling, Angels in America style. He’s the entertainment because an unexpected thunderstorm has driven the ceremonies indoors.

We’re in line to receive our diplomas, but Kim’s missing. She’s always just before me in alphabetical order. I know her dad is very ill and her absence drops a cloud over me. I’m worried.

I hear someone call my name and I stumble across the stage distractedly. Random teachers hug me, but none of my favorites is there.

There is no time. There is rushing around.

Suddenly I find myself in the car with my family, heading home to New Orleans.

“Wait!” I cry. “Stop the car! What about all my stuff, everything back at the dorm?” I yelp. All I have is the clothes on my back.

They meet my wild eyes with blank stares.

“We just figured maybe you’re better off without all of it. You don’t need that stuff.”

Maybe they’re right. Maybe I don’t.

***A few thoughts: I am still ruminating, but it’s obvious there are some very real pieces to this dream, one of them being the piece Shelly Kramer wrote yesterday: 5 Year Old’s Advice to Women: Get a Job! And my missing high school friend Kim? Her dad is battling cancer. My thoughts and prayers are with her entire family. ***

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  • Polly

    There is a lot of symbolism here, Erin. You are changing, ever evolving. Take only what you need, the other stuff is not necessary. Let it go.

  • http://www.thekircorner.com Kir

    I think you are definately in a place where you are letting go of the stuff you don’t need, you’re GRADUATING to a new level of “you”. Evolving is a really good word.

  • http://twitter.com/tsonoda Terri Sonoda

    Erin. Good dream and good advice. Wish I’d had a similar dream years ago and knew its meaning. Saying prayers for your friend’s family as well. Hugs.

  • http://www.postdivorcechronicles.com PostDivorceCoach

    Me likey

  • Anonymous

    Wow! Sounds pretty profound — they thought you didn’t need any of that stuff. I have been desperately at work to purge. Both of my junk and my “junk”. I have carried all kinds of baggage along with me over the years and I am hell-bent on losing it.

    Thank you for sharing your dream.
    :-)
    Traci

  • Anonymous

    girl… you have some mad writing skills. dream on, sister!

  • http://antsinmypants.tumblr.com/ Antsy Pants

    Wow. Now THAT’S a dream. You don’t need all that stuff, and you know it now.

  • http://www.bigteethandclouds.com Big Teeth & Clouds

    Dreams are so weird. I really think there must be meaning to some of them. It’s just so hard to figure it all out!

  • Anne

    Sounds like your subconscious is working hard to get a message to you! Dreams can be pretty powerful motivators.

  • http://www.mayangelstar.com Veronica

    Your dream state has some good advice. Prayers to Kim and her family.

  • AmyLynn

    I used to have these kinds of dreams about my wedding. I was constantly trying to get my hair washed before the ceremony.

    In retrospect, maybe I should have seen this as advice to WASH THAT man right outta my hair–musical? anyone?

    that is all

  • http://amandamagee.com amandamagee

    Letting go can bring so much clarity and allow you to move more freely.

  • http://www.shadesofblueandgreen.com/ Ash

    I think your dream is spot on. You’re getting there my friend.

    Prayers of peace for Kim and her family.

  • Alexandra

    So symbolic. You know where I stand with my wishes for you: I”d like to grant you release from the past and sweet things from hereon.

  • Anonymous

    Ok let’s start with Beau who is flying above all of it. He has a perspective you would like to have. Above it all to get a better view of the whole thing. To be part of it without being in the middle of it.. but letting go is HUGE.. knowing what to keep and what is important, truly important has you so bound. Let it go. It has served it’s purpose, put on your wings like Beau and see all that you have already accomplished from above the happenings. Get a bird’s eye view on all of it, categorize it and let it go..

  • Anonymous

    Stuff. Fucking stuff. There’s so much, emotional and physical, that I just want to throw out and stop carrying around.

    You’ll get there.

  • MiMi

    At least your dreams make sense.
    Mine would have ended with a purple dog or something.

  • http://twitter.com/musingsdemommy Musings de Mommy

    I am trying to rid myself and my life and my house of all the stuff. If I don’t love it, it’s outta here. Such a vivid dream, vividly captured. xo

  • http://alguires.blogspot.com Elaine A.

    It’s really crazy to me that you posted this because I had a really vivid dream last night about random people from my past and I actually thought about writing it down since I rarely remember my dreams anymore. Huh.

  • Kimberly All Work No Play

    Whew there is a crap ton of symbolisim here. My dreams usually involve someone getting awkwardly naked and not in an awkward good way either.

  • Ally

    I wish I could remember more of my dreams. I wake up thinking about them and then they immediately start to fade away. This was quite a symbolic one, wasn’t it?

  • http://www.mommyshorts.com/ Ilana @ Mommy Shorts

    I used to remember all of my dreams. It’s all part of slowly waking up. Unfortunately, having a baby abruptly break my slumber every morning has taken away that process. I had forgotten I was missing that until just now.

  • http://npoj.blogspot.com Nancy C

    Yup. Major stuff is happening. Breakthrough stuff. Exciting, change-the-world type stuff. I’m sitting back and watching it all bloom.

    And sending love to Kim and her family.

  • http://aladyinfrance.com Lady Jennie

    Maybe all that stuff is the baggage of your past (that’s how I would interpret the dream for myself if I had had it).

  • Mamaface

    whoa. I kept having to remind myself that this was a dream. It was so realistic at times. Must mean something… I miss you btw. :)

  • Dwmatty

    Hello Erin. It’s my first visit to your new blog. Nice clean, fresh, simple look here. I hope your writery roots take off here.

    As for dreams, I have some real doozies. Some I remember, some I don’t.